"The things I hadn't dealt with."

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Josh was 12 years old when the phone rang on a quiet Sunday morning. He was home alone, mid-game of WWE SmackDown, when a voice on the other end broke the news.

In this episode, Josh talks honestly about delayed grief, the way children absorb loss without the language to process it, and how the stories we tell - through music, through art, through conversation - can become the very thing that saves us.

He also reflects on identity: growing up the happy one, finding his voice as a storyteller, and learning to answer the three questions his drama lecturer once posed: who am I, why am I here, and is that okay?

This is a conversation about grief that arrives late, creativity as survival, and the slow, ongoing process of becoming who you were always meant to be.

LINKS:
Listen to Josh's song "Life as a Fleeting Bird" on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0EkW0sS6uYlfXB7InWl40o?si=40c3280ab1ed497c
Chapters
  • 00:00 Intro
  • 02:16 A miracle baby and a mother with lupus
  • 05:12 The Sunday morning everything changed
  • 09:18 Dodging the wrecking ball
  • 14:37 University, drama and the question: who am I?
  • 17:11 The dream, the weeping, the hard reset
  • 20:05 Writing a song for his mom
24 Mar English South Africa Documentary · Personal Journals

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